3/15/12

Not Happy, Not Surprised

The news is Not Good.

I just got off the phone with Dr. Bouncy, just a couple hours after my scan was finished.  There are several tumors in my cerebellum.  Nothing they can see above that, which is good - it means that there's nothing in the areas that affect my thinking self, who I am.  But it is probably the cause of the headaches and nausea and dizziness I've been having.  So the next step is radiation.

The largest tumor is 1cm, so Dr. B is hoping that I will be a candidate for stereotactic radiosurgery - possibly either Gammaknife or Cyberknife - rather than having to go through whole brain radiation.  Of course, there is the chance that there are microtumors further up that the radiation won't then get... but on the other hand, I think the radiation on my hip actually made the tumor on the left side grow more aggressively, so I'm not too enthusiastic about irradiating my whole brain.  

So they're sending me to the UofMN, to talk to a radiologist there and see what my options are.  Dr. B says if I decide on radiation, they will probably do it within a week or so.  Pretty quick, not a lot of time to prepare...

So yah, I'm scared.  This whole thing really sucks, you know?  I need a vacation from being me...
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5 comments:

mrspao said...

Huge huge hugs xxxx We are sending our love from the UK in barrel loads.

Leslie said...

Oh Eileen....sometimes there are just no words to express how much my heart aches to hear of what you are going through. I send love.
Leslie

Catherine said...

There are no words just love.

Polly Andersen said...

I'm thinking of you, sending hugs through the wires.

Nancy K. said...

Well CRAP! I haven't stopped by for awhile. I usually come via your other blog and since it hasn't been updated, it hasn't moved up to the top section of my blog roll. I am so sorry to hear this latest development. You are in my thoughts and prayers Dear Lady!

Keep fighting the good fight ~ we're all pulling for you. You have to be SO tired of all of this! I can't believe how matter-of-fact you seem when you post your medical updates. You are a very brave lady! Will you be able to attend another retreat? That would be so wonderful if you could.

On another note: I don't always feel sad when I think about you. When I think of you holding your beautiful, little Granddaughter, it makes me smile!

Sending you lots of love and prayers.