~my surgeon, from her surgery report
After all, I had made it clear that I knew I would eventually go on some form of hormone therapy (we won't talk about my flat refusal of chemo and radiation, although I consider my reasoning to be sound on this issue). I simply wanted to make one change at a time, since my history is one of adverse reactions to drugs, and I didn't want to confuse the side effects of one treatment with another. That isn't recalcitrance. That's just knowing oneself, and a desire to be in control of one's own life.
But, being me, I looked up the exact definition of the word.
Main Entry: re·cal·ci·trant
Etymology: Late Latin recalcitrant-, recalcitrans, present participle of recalcitrare, to be stubbornly disobedient, from Latin, to kick back, from
re- + calcitrare to kick, from calc-, calx heel
1: obstinately defiant of authority or restraint
2a: difficult to manage or operate, b: not responsive to treatment, c: RESISTANT this subject is recalcitrant both to observation and to experiment — G. G. Simpson
**from the Merriam-Webster OnLine Dictionary