I know I haven't written lately.
That is because I haven't had anything to say. I haven't had anything to say because I haven't been able to do much, other than lay in bed and be miserable.
The Gemzar is not agreeing with me. This last week I spent nearly entirely in bed with a high fever (up to the mid 103's). There's no evidence of infection, which is the concern with high fevers and chemo. And fever is not unusual with Gemzar, in particular. It's just that usually people get 'flu symptoms' for one or two days. I get them for five or six, and I get them hard.
The question is - is my suffering now doing me enough good that it will buy me functional time later? Or am I just suffering and losing time?
And we don't know the answer to that. I don't know when we will. But I'll let you know as soon as I know.
Until then, I'm hanging in there as best I can. But it's really fatiguing to do anything (like get across the room, or eat, or breathe), so I may not report in as often as I'd like in the meantime.
That said, this is my 'week off', so I'm hoping that later in the week I might feel a little more myself.
A girl can hope, right?