12/10/09

Time, Time, Time...

Oh, for heaven's sake!! My beautiful cousin just mentioned, offhand-like, that I hadn't posted since November. I didn't quite believe her until I checked for myself.

Well, enough of that Pity Party. I won't know for a couple more months whether jumping off the dock did anything more than make me wet and cold, so I might as well get back to business...

For anyone interested, yes, I am getting side effects from the Aromasin. As usual, at least one of them is extremely rare. So far, none of them are terribly debilitating, although some are fairly unpleasant. And no, this is probably not all of them - some of the known side effects can show up months and even years later (if I get lucky enough to have years ahead of me to get side effects in, I will try to be gracious enough not to whine too much about it. I did say try, right?)

If the Aromasin works and gives me more functional time (although as Dr. Bouncy reminds me, probably not actual lifespan time), the side effects will be worth it. It's the Wait And See that's hard. Well, it's all hard, but the Wait And See is particularly tough, especially when you don't feel that you have much time for many other experiments if this one doesn't work out.

In the meantime, we are taking advantage of what time we have, as much as we can. We are doing as many of the Christmas Traditions as we can fit in. We are looking forward to the arrival of a very dear friend from New York City in the near future, and the arrival of an old friend from D.C. in the New Year, and perhaps the arrival of my only and aforementioned girl cousin soon after that. If time, health, and tax returns allow, we will try to get in another small vacation in the next six months or so. We'll make what plans we can, while we can.

Because we don't have time to waste.

Does anyone?

4 comments:

Delighted Hands said...

Time is too precious to waste, thanks for the reminder.

Daria said...

No I don't think anyone does.

Nancy K. said...

May I ask a very personal question? How is your son handling all of this? Please forgive me if that's intrusive. And you certainly don't have to answer, if you don't want to. (like you needed me to tell you THAT!)

So much of your experience reminds me of when my mother was being treated for Oat Cell Carcinoma of the lungs. When she was diagnosed, she was told that she had 2 months to live. She lived 11 more months. I spent a lot of time with her during that eleven months but wish that I had spent even more. There are so many things that I wanted to say to her and so many questions that I wanted to ask but I just couldn't bring myself to say or ask them.

I can't even begin to imagine the anguish, seeing you go through all of this, that your Mother is going through. You are loved. And that means that the people who love you hurt along with you. I think the worst thing of all is not being able to do anything to help. I would imagine that it's just as bad for you! Knowing that the people who love you are worrying and scared and hurting and you trying so hard to put on a brave front to help THEM with the process...

I admire your spunk and your fire! You're setting an example of willingness to fight for what you want and willingness to do what ever it takes. May God Bless you!

Laughingrat said...

Glad to hear the side effects aren't too debilitating. Hopefully the stuff will keeping giving more than it takes!