11/27/09

Not What I Wanted To Hear

So the news is back from the scan, and it's not good. Spread at hip and femur, new tumors on chest and collarbone, and I lit up in the spine and liver. That's a fair amount of progression for 5 months. So my timeline has been shortened quite a bit from what we had hoped for. We knew the cancer was aggressive, but we weren't sure what exactly that meant in terms of time.

Now we have a better idea, even though we don't like the answer. From the sound of it, Dr. Bouncy wasn't liking it, either - I think he was hopeful, too.

I never seem to beat the odds in the right direction.

So. Nothing brilliant to say at the moment - I haven't had time to process it all. Not that there's necessarily much brilliant to say after processing, either. Pretty much what there was to say before the bad news:

We'll see.

9 comments:

Delighted Hands said...

No, I am sure you can't think of anything brilliant to say now. I would sit and be numb for a day and then get back to living as best as I could....

krex said...

Speechless . Just thinking "arrggg, not fare !"

The Violet Hoarder said...

Complete bummer and coming at a hard time of year. Good to hear Dr. Bouncy is hopeful. Do whatever you have to do to get beyond this news, stick close to loved ones, and keep writing to us. Your courage is amazing.

Richard Hickey said...

Damn.

This is "An American Mom's" other half. I've been watching and reading your site for a while now. I'm sorry to hear about the scan. Sometimes good news is hard to come by. The Doc should only be allowed to give good news dangit!

Rich

Daria said...

I`m sorry to hear the news from your scans ... I just hate cancer.

Roberta said...

Damn it Eileen...I thought the grass was rosier on your side of the fence...and I hate it when they say watch and see, wait and see. Argh!

Any news on the plethora of options for you?

Amy said...

Damn indeed.

Nancy K. said...

I wish I could give you a BIG HUG!

You know ~ I'm not working at the present time. If you feel like company ~ anytime ~ let me know! I can't bring Dream but I know that she's sending big hugs too!

Laughingrat said...

Crap. I'm really sorry, Eileen.